As you know, Elise got her first big girl a little while ago. I have been amazed at how she just jumped on it and took off; like she had been doing it all her life. In fact, she scared me when I saw just how fast she could make that thing go.
And just the other day, she had her first fall. She got going a little too fast, and as I ran after her as fast as my pregnant belly would allow, she turned the wheel too sharply, and BOOM! Down she went.
Of course, she was wearing her helmet, and amazingly, there was no damage. She fell on the part of her arm that often gets the injections. So, who knows, perhaps all those needles have toughened up the skin so it's impervious to road rash?
I was so proud of how, after we had dried her tears, she got right back on that bike and kept going. Albeit, a little more slowly and carefully this time.
And it reminded me of our ride on the roller-coaster with diabetes. I don't know about you, but I am guilty of getting a little too cocky from time to time. When I have a good run of numbers, I feel like I can do anything; like I have complete control over D.
Sometimes I won't test her at her morning snack time, because really... she's almost always in range, plus it would be nice to give those tiny fingers a bit of a break. Or if I'm baking, I'll let her have a little lick of the spoon. What harm can it do? Or I decide to estimate carbs instead of weighing them and getting the actual number. In essence, I get going a little too fast and then BOOM!
The crash comes in the form a wonky numbers, corrections or extra carbs, lots of testing, and a whole lotta "HUH?" moments.
I think a little (emphasis on little) fall now and then is a good thing. It teaches you to be humble, and a little bit about respect. In Elise's case, she learned what her limit is, and to respect just how fast that bike can go. And what happens if you let it get out of control.
I've learned that I indeed, do NOT know everything, and though it's okay to bend the rules every once in awhile, do it too often and you will crash and burn.
So as long as the tumble isn't too bad, and doesn't hurt that much, I am grateful for it. It's in the falling I think that we learn our greatest lessons.
I'm in the middle of a "crash" period right now, so I totally relate to this post. Grace had great - I mean GREAT - numbers for about 6 weeks, and now... BLAM! Crash Crash Crash. I just keep telling myself we'll figure this out and her numbers will stabilize. I just hope I don't go too grey in the meantime!
ReplyDeleteDiabetes never lets you forget. Never lets you get away with much. And ALWAYS keeps you humble. :)
ReplyDeleteGlad she's having fun on her big girl bike!
GREAT post and so, so true! Love the big girl bike....she's growing up so fast! What happened to your baby???
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post, Joanne! And a lesson we all need to remember...stay humble, but don't drive yourself crazy, right?
ReplyDeleteGlad Elise is enjoying the bike!
SO true friend. We learn the most from our falls and the big D requires a lot of respect. Perfect analogy. :)
ReplyDeleteGreat thoughts. We all get that cockiness and then BAM- the D brings us back to our knees. It's a great reality check isn't it. And I agree, we learn how to do it all by falling, then getting right back on.
ReplyDeleteOh...I SOOOO hear you Joanne. I have even been brazen enough to say "I think Joe has a lesser form of type 1..." haha. Then WHAMMO, KAPOWWWW!!! Diabetes socks it to me a good one to remind me who is in charge...and it certainly isn't ME. lol
ReplyDeleteI do agree the greatest lessens are learned by falls and mistakes...with everything in life.
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this is an awesome post and yep the big d does indeed give us a boom every now and then and always reminds us yep Im still here BOOM !!!
ReplyDeleteYea, I'm with you Joanne.....big time!
ReplyDeleteTell Elise good job on her bike! : )
Elise is 1 tough cookie! Good for her for getting back up on that bike!!
ReplyDeleteGreat analogy! Love it!
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