I'm tired. And yeah, I know I'm preaching to the choir on this one... but I never thought it was possible to be physically exhausted to the point of wanting to throw up.
We've had a bad couple of nights lately. Lots of lows. Eileen buzzing and alarming. Elise's blood sugar keeps dropping into the 60s overnight. We give her carbs only to have her drop about an hour later. I guess it's time to lower her nighttime NPH.
Again.
If I had to estimate, I'd say I'm probably getting about 2 hours of sleep a night. Unfortunately, it's not all at the same time. I might fall asleep for 15 minutes, then I need to pee. Or after 30 minutes of shut-eye, Eileen warns us that Elise is dropping. Or after a mere 5 minutes, my back is complaining that I need to roll over. Or my husband starts to snore (if he's not using his CPAP machine). Or if he is, it starts to make too much noise. Or. Or. Or.
And it's starting to affect me mentally, physically and emotionally. I have tons of examples, but I will spare you from the boring minutiae of my day-to-day life. I will say this, I pity anyone who dares be rude to me, cut me off in traffic, or look at me the wrong way. We have an expression around here and it's called the "WOJ".
And it stands for the Wrath of Joanne. Woe to anyone who wrongs me in my increasingly fragile mental state. I am exhausted. I am 9 months pregnant. I am hormonal.
You have been warned.
So sorry. I'd tell you it gets better once the baby is born... but I'm still waiting for that to happen. :)
ReplyDeleteHere's to hoping you can at least get an uninterrupted nap today.
I LOVE YOU!!! Hormonal, grumpy, or whatev. I think I would like to see the wrath of Joanne directed at one of my enemies...now that could be some good "blogging" material! Hang in there my dear. When is the baby coming? Oh BTW, my Birthday was on Aug 27th. When is yours?
ReplyDeleteWOJ - love it!
ReplyDeleteIt'll get worse before it gets better.
Try to smile!
Mine are 33 & 31. And like Danielle said, I'm still waiting for it to get better. You are always a mom.
Ooo, I like Reyna's idea! I'd love to see WOJ directed at some of our enemies!
ReplyDeleteSeriously though, I'm so sorry you're not getting any rest! That end-of-pregnancy sucks! And sleep is such a precious commodity already! I hope you're blessed with a fantastic through-the-night sleeper once baby is here!
Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I am so sorry you are dealing with overnight lows! THEY SUCK!! You are strong and are a great mommy!!!
ReplyDeleteYou my friend...are ready! I remember these days like they were yesterday.
ReplyDeleteI would call you every night and sing you a lullaby if my singing voice didn't sound like nails on a chalkboard.
Love ya! No WOJ for me thankyouverymuch...but I have a few people I may send your way. :)
OK...since you are ANTI-FB...I had to clog up your blog with a Birthday Wish.
ReplyDeleteJoanne, Happy Birthday. I am so grateful for your presence on this earth. I hope your day is filled with love, peace, and rest.
Love,
Reyna
Hey you are awesome and just take it easy and yes I got really upset and tired toward the delivery date too as I recall and I got grumpy too . I felt like the whole world was on my shoulders .
ReplyDeleteHi Joanne! I'm taking a big break from the computer, but I did hop onto your blog today!
ReplyDeleteI can't believe you're ready to pop. And so little sleep. I'm sorry.
I will keep you in my prayers!
I still want all of us to get together when things settle down for you. Hmmmm....well...okay, they may never settle down....so let's just plan it in the next couple months.
Deal? : )
You poor thing! I will say a prayer for you. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you are exhausted right now...and at a time when you really need your rest. I was pregnant when Ally was dx. One thing I can say is that I never once complained about waking up in the night to feed the baby...I was already up! So I just blamed all of my lack of sleep grumpiness on D!
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